Weird Dreams

It is only natural for a man of my state to lie, to himself. It soon sticks and feels all the very natural, I know. Fuckin' brain. It is a mighty clockwork deriding the vestigial organs on their worthless state of existence. Blietzkreig raging on to the children that were once protected by the shadows. I had to protect the shadows instead.

Tattoed onto my sulcuses, these dragons had to vanish. The shadows were a bit too dreary even for the lies I cared for. And i had to choose what the crypts meant. This had to vanish. The loss was too much the pain had to cease.
I slept. The convertible was too good to resist. Fuck the world was what my brain last spat out, it went awry after that.

I was covered in blood. Dripping the red lines on the already red tapestery of the room I was in. She lay in my arms with holes for eyes and wooden sticks for limbs. Mindfuck.
How was she not bleeding when I was covered head to toes in blood. And then she spoke, ' fuck yourself'. I kissed her while she still had words in her mouth. I sucked whatever soul she had,defeaning silence drowning all the commotions around me and I fell asleep. Echoing around me were the words ' love you a lot kiddo.

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